Wednesday, September 3, 2014
The last few months have been the craziest of transitions, with moving from San Francisco and getting settled in Sacramento. But amidst all of this you are just completely delectable my babe. People have a hard time resisting you with your toothy little smile, and your sparkly little eyes. You're crawling and pulling yourself up. You're saying "dada" and "dog" and some others we're not completely sure about. You want to do everything your sister does, and she is still quite possibly the best thing that ever happened to you. You've always been very curious and very observant, and I love watching your little mind work. We have a few more weeks until we move into our home, and your sister just started Kindergarten, and I actually can't wait until things settle down and I have some time to take a few deep breaths with you - just you and I.
I love being with you and getting to know you. You are strong willed, but oh so sweet. You are the cuddliest. You point and reach for things you want, and you refuse baby food, but love everything that the adults are eating. You're still my mama's girl. I am completely smitten with you, my love. You make everything complete.
Keep growing and getting stronger. I'll be here watching and cheering!
Friday, May 23, 2014
Olive has truly tripled in size and personality, since this first week of her life. We've been growing and expanding around here. Despite all the buzz and chaos of moving, these two have entwined themselves together like an old, familiar quilt. Watching the two of them become sisters has been nothing short of magical. It's the single most surprising thing about my motherhood journey so far. I had no idea how much they would love each other. While I'm sure the whining and bickering will one day creep in a bit, I'm so ready to witness this journey they're on.
Here's to sisterhood.
Saturday, April 19, 2014
You're four months old! And 16 pounds! And every bit of you is delicious. We have been in the middle of some serious life changing times, and sometimes life feels so chaotic and scary that I'm afraid I will miss your tiny little moments. But then I'm reminded that I am so lucky to get to be home with you - that it's my privilege to do the everyday with you. I may not be writing down your every giggle, but I can promise you that I am witnessing you grow every day, and I am loving you through every bit of the process. You have fit into our family like the perfect piece. You've been coming into your own, and getting a bit of a routine - and every day around 4:30 you wait for your daddy's chest to lay on for an afternoon nap. You laugh, and you are trying to roll over. You're super content, a happy baby, who is taking everything in with a quiet confidence. You've discovered your voice in a big way this month, and have been experimenting with all the different octaves. It's quite hilarious. You are still a complete and total Mama's girl, and I soak up every minute of it.
The moments you have with your sister are so precious, and hilarious! Daddy and I often joke that we don't even need outside entertainment anymore, we can watch your sister perform death defying acts just to see you giggle "one last time". No one makes you laugh like she does. She adores you Olive, and has taken to calling you "Booshka-Toot". It kinda stuck (sorry about that).
The other day I was feeling down and overwhelmed due to the reality that I don't have the time to give to you that I had with your sister. I felt panicked that I was missing something, or that you weren't getting all that you deserved. But then your sister came out of her room and walked over to you and said (in her sing-song voice that always makes you smile), "HI OLIVE! Let Sissy hold you! Hi Booshka-Toot! Vivi loves YOU!" And you lit up in a way I could never make you light up. I felt so content I couldn't even speak. It dawned on me right there that you don't have everything she had. You have more. You have her. And that is the best gift we could ever give you.
We adore you our sweet Olive Jane. Keep growing strong.
Friday, April 4, 2014
|This little girl has grown up so much.|
|Baby O, as we've taken to calling her.|
|Olive putting up with my (dirty) mirror shots.|
|She's been learning to swim.|
|Car sick trooper.|
|I shamelessly match them, any chance I get.|
|Mother and daughter photographers.|
|Speaks for itself.|
|V doing what she does best - tinkering and crafting the morning away.|
|Setting up an animal school.|
Looking back on these moments is always bittersweet. I love these two so much. They really are my whole life (quite literally these days) and I wouldn't change it for a second. I know I'll look back one day and miss this manic period of my life. (I'm not there right now, but I'm told I will be.) Things are hard most of the time right now. (And tiring, and stressful, and scary, and utterly beautiful.) BUT, these two are mine, and right along side all the other stuff -- I walk around feeling so damn lucky every single time I look at my children.
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
Dear Olive Bird,
We've had you two whole months now, and you are quite simply irresistible. You smile with your eyes - as evidenced in the picture above - and it's rare when you're not smiling. At the doctor appointment this month you had 6 vaccinations which broke Mommy's heart. Mostly because right before they pricked you (three times) you looked up at me and gave me the sweetest little grin with your whole face. It crushed me to watch your little face turn purple with rage. You weigh 12 pounds, the same as your sister at this age. You are incredibly strong! You've been lifting your little neck since day one, but the doctor thinks you're almost ready to roll over. You sleep on your tummy, and you love music.
It's been quite a ride these last few months. I told myself before you were born that I would try my best not to compare you to your sister, and I think I've done that for the most part. It's hard not to see the similarities, and even the differences, in the two of you so far. You're so tiny, little bird. You have so much growth ahead of you and I find myself almost sad about every milestone, knowing it brings you closer to getting bigger. You are super happy and healthy and that is ALL I wanted for you when I was still growing you.
You adore your sister. It's only been 9 weeks and the bond already seems so strong. If she is anywhere near you, a huge smile spreads across your face. She can make you light up just by being near. It's pretty incredible to dream about what your relationship will become. She adores you as well, and is pretty used to you now. She took the transition of you pretty well, and she wants to be involved in every little care taking step. Above all though, you are a mommy's girl. You are most settled and content when you are with me, and I am completely fine with this baby. Smitten may be more accurate. It's something I didn't anticipate, (your sister was a daddy's girl as well) and I love it.
All that worrying before you were born about how I would be able to love someone else the way I love your sister, and here I am - two months in - and I couldn't fathom life any other way. It's an incredible thing being the mother of two daughters, and something I'm only beginning to understand the meaning of. I just want you to know you are dreamy, and you are loved. People who meet you call you "content" and it's true, you seem content with your tiny body. A calm, peaceful little bird.
Vivienne will always be the one who made me a mother. You are the one who made me realize my confidence as a mother. I adore you, Olive Jane. Grow strong.
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Two weeks after Olive was born, I took Vivienne on a date to the Nutcracker. It's something we do every year, and I wasn't going to miss this year! It was nice to spend the afternoon together, finding each other again. We went to a nice restaurant and then met some little friends for the ballet. Someday soon I'll take both girls. It's one of my favorite things about Christmas.